me: i’m gonna write

me: [reads another person’s writing]

me: i’m never writing again

I turned 22 today and while I don’t usually place too much importance on celebrating birthdays, it’s an ideal excuse to catch up with friends I haven’t seen for months. Funny how that works, but eh, live and let live. 


Taurus Ascending 

The Eyes of Light 

Taurus Ascending individuals emanate unique energies of the ancient festival that integrated Eastern and Western divinity, and light a pathway of illumination on the material plane.These individuals are constantly duelling with pairs of opposites to create melody; and as the ruler of the thyroid gland, tremendous reserves of creative energy lay transmuted through the subliminal higher utilisation of sexual energies. Taurus Ascending relates to desire, indulgence, pleasure and the attachment to physical form. The soul purpose of these individuals very much relates to provocation of the material world with consciousness; and cultivating their freedom from the material. 

 Taurus Ascending relates to the Buddha, whose birth, enlightenment and death was all said to have occurred during the time of Taurus. His teachings resonate with the lesson of material detachment; and the alternative use of this passageway for creative manifestation rather than desire. Valcun is the ruler of Taurus here, whose energies relate to the transformation and refining of all forms so they will provide more nourishing for the soul. These individuals are highly sensual in their orientation, and tend to be ultra receptive to their sensory environment. Mild temperature changes, subtle aromas and the patterns of complement easily engages the attention of Taurus Ascending; and many have a high urgency for physical contact. Taurus Ascending relates to the 4th Ray of Wisdom - of Harmony and Conflict; and here we find the synchronistic fusion between trauma for transformation, conflict resolution, creative living, the use of imagination and intuition, spontaneous improvisation and the maintenance of harmony. All forms of spiritual and mental health associate with the Fourth Ray.   

The mineral kingdom is ruled by Taurus Ascending, and this sign symbolically associates with the “eye” in the head of the Bull, the 3rd eye, the light of the head, and Buddha’s said ‘diamond eye’ - his consciousness. These individuals are innately clever, resourceful and express an intelligent desire, and as a part of the Fixed Cross, develop intimate connections with their beliefs and an unwavering commitment to their ambitions. Intrinsic and contradictory reflexes in these individuals may cause the self generation crises; because an opposition creates their feeling of completion. Taurus Ascending possess the etheric golden eye, the passageway between the East and the West; the integration between the concept of God Transcendental and God Indwelling, the sparkling light of the Divine. 

After getting halfway through season two of Girls and realising none of the characters were relatable, I think I prefer this adorably awkward Introverts web series. :3

"CHOOSE WHAT YOU WANT. If you are concerned about a choice or direction, you must choose the direction you want. You know what you want. To pretend you do not know what you want is to presume you cannot have what you want. You will gravitate toward what you need no matter what you choose, but choosing consciously in a direction you want helps clear a path to what you need, as well. Even if you find that your choices are limited, choosing what you want from within that range can help you to broaden that range of choice."

—Micheal teachings, from TruthLoveEnergy report for August 2014


venus in aquarius

“I am a shattered mirror of my egoic self; dreamless, unfelt and desperately grasping for significance.” 

“My goal in life is to sneak into as many underground warehouse parties as possible, watch at least ten romances and one major revolution blossoming, so I can write about being moved by some radically beautiful imprint on consciousness I could never dream of making.”

"She surrendered devotionally to the dark hours of her mind beneath the halogen moon lights, soaked in the frost of empty midnight streets, waiting to be imagined by nobody." 
"Life became simpler when I stopped needing people to be something they didn’t want to be, like a person who was capable of loving me."

"I think people want you to be happy so they don’t have to hear about your problems. And that’s how you feel a moral responsibility to end up alone."

-fragmented lines from an unfinished poem inspired by last night’s events. 

The more beautiful world our hearts know is possible

A recognition of alliance is growing among people in diverse arenas of activism, whether political, social, or spiritual. The holistic acupuncturist and the sea turtle rescuer may not be able to explain the feeling, “We are serving the same thing,” but they are. Both are in service to an emerging Story of the People that is the defining mythology of a new kind of civilization.

I will call it the Story of Interbeing, the Age of Reunion, the ecological age, the world of the gift. It offers an entirely different set of answers to the defining questions of life. Here are some of the principles of the new story:

  • That my being partakes of your being and that of all beings. This goes beyond interdependency—our very existence is relational.
  • That, therefore, what we do to another, we do to ourselves.
  • That each of us has a unique and necessary gift to give the world.
  • That the purpose of life is to express our gifts.
  • That every act is significant and has an effect on the cosmos.
  • That we are fundamentally unseparate from each other, from all beings, and from the universe.
  • That every person we encounter and every experience we have mirrors something in ourselves.
  • That humanity is meant to join fully the tribe of all life on Earth, offering our uniquely human gifts toward the well-being and development of the whole.
  • That purpose, consciousness, and intelligence are innate properties of matter and the universe

…The desire to serve something transcending the separate self and the pain we feel from the suffering of others are two sides of the same coin. Both bespeak our interbeingness. The emerging science that seeks to explain them, whether it invokes mirror neurons, horizontal gene transfer, group evolution, morphic fields, or something further out, doesn’t explain them away, but merely illustrates a general principle of connection or, dare I say it, oneness. The science is beginning to confirm what we have intuitively known all along: we are greater than what we have been told. We are not just a skin-encapsulated ego, a soul encased in flesh. We are each other and we are the world.

From Chapter Three: Interbeing by Charles Eisenstein 

The Rain Room is a 100 square metre field of falling water which visitors are invited to walk into. Sensors detect where visitors are standing, and the rain stops around them, giving them an experience of how it might feel to control the rain.


"I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone."

Robin Williams (via wordsnquotes)

Celebrity deaths aren’t anymore significant to me than the often invisible deaths of ordinary people, but I hope it’s a wake up call for everyone to start taking depression and suicide more seriously. I feel like rates of depression are only going to increase if the status quo and culture of emotional unavailability remains unchanged. 


The edge of the canvas // The pallete of colors after the painting


by Lina Scheynius

"Feminism is a choice, and if a woman does not want to be a feminist, that is her right, but it is still my responsibility to fight for her rights. I believe feminism is grounded in supporting the choices of women even if we wouldn’t make certain choices for ourselves."

Roxane Gay on the Complexities and Blind Spots of the Equality Movement

I’m happy to call myself a “bad feminist” if it means daring to critique feminist essentialism.